Learn About the 4th Step Part 1


Step 4: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
In the fourth step, we finally get to the working part of the program. Spiritual Malady, the third aspect of our disease, gets it’s first real looking into. Loosely defined Spiritual Malady can be translated to a bad connection between ourselves, others and God (as you understand) Its symptoms are unmanageability and disharmony. The Big Book begins its fourth step discussion with the analogy of a business inventory. Every business that does well must know what items they have, what are their accurate value and what things are valueless. It’s suggested we do the very same with our lives.

We have already been shown how selfishness is the root of the issue. As addicts, our incessant thought of ourselves created a world where everything and anything could only be seen through the lenses of, “how does this affect me?”. Not a good way to live. This leads any logical mind to consider then the avenues through which this selfishness would bleed into both our lives and the lives of those around us. It appears the glasses of selfishness are comprised of lenses colored by resentment, fear, guilt, and shame.

We start with resentment. The word comes from the old French word, resentir – “feel again.” The Big Book explains that the biggest threat to an addict is resentment. Our very lives depend on learning to get free of these. There is that old joke about the addict who gets shipwrecked on an island alone. Having spent a long time on the island, he built everything he needed to survive. One day he gets rescued by a navy ship, and the sailor who greets him first on the beach sees four huts behind him. The sailor asks, “What are those huts for?” The addict replied, “Oh, the first one is my house, the second one is where I go to meetings; I’m an addict in recovery, and the third one is my place of worship, I’m Catholic.” Looking at a fourth hut, the sailor asked, “what about that fourth hut?”
“Oh, I caught a resentment at my homegroup, had to go to another meeting.” He said.

We don’t need to have anyone present to catch a resentment. We can do that all by ourselves.

If we are having a problem with a step, many sponsors will ask us to back up to the step prior. The third step suggests that we no longer play God. So if a resentment is poisoning us, we should look at this. By playing God, it’s implied that we know everything, including what’s right and wrong. Many times we have resentfully made judgments against a person or circumstance with false assumptions, missing facts, one side of the story, no sides of the story, or just our irrelevant past experiences and indeed no knowledge of the future. So we JUDGE the person, find them GUILTY, get ANGRY at them, and FEEL that ANGER AGAIN. RESENTMENT means to RE FEEL. Anytime we have a profound resentment we may want to look at what’s “WRONG” we are reeling from, it may even be a justified one. When we are resentful, we are always looking for a person other than our self. It’s God’s place to judge what’s right or wrong. A better scale than “good or bad” for humans to measure each other with would be “healthy or unhealthy.” If we discern someone or their actions as being unhealthy, we can bypass the judgment of bad. It’s the difference between calling a person a scumbag, or just unhealthy. We all make unhealthy decisions, the language of “healthy or unhealthy” allows us to leave judgment to God. The way we measure others is the same way we will measure ourselves. When we fall short, an easy path towards resentment at self, we will want the mercy of calling ourselves unhealthy rather than something more vulgar.

The Fourth Step Helps Us Clear Out Resentments

We have all had circumstances that we were positive what was happening was wrong, and had it turn out to be to our benefit. Similarly, we have all had a person who did something harmful to us, that through some divine twist, turned out to benefit us. “Life can only be understood backward, but it must be lived forwards.”, Said Soren Kierkegaard. No place is this more relevant than the Spiritual Path of life. And let’s face it sometimes life is just not fair. People we love are going to die early, others who show no principles will get rich as we struggle financially, the girl who said she would never leave does horrifically. Whatever the source of the resentment, we must me be rid of it. Resentment is always about the past.

Whether its an ex who cheated, a business partner who stole, or a friend turned enemy, we have to let go. The weight of resentment ensures that we will sink into the bitter abyss of hatred, loneliness and eventually, active addiction. There is a way out. Just one. FORGIVENESS. “Forgiveness means letting go of the hope for a better past.”, Said Lama Surya Das. When we forgive someone no matter what they did, we cut the spiritual tie from them and receive the gift of no longer hating them. This allows us to be more in the present moments of our lives, alive. Some festering resentments can be compared to injuries, whether it’s a gushing flesh wound, an annoying paper cut, or a scab we must allow the ointment of forgiveness to combine with the healing power of time, to allow for the scars of triumph to develop. We can find some suggested prayers specifically for this in the big book. The site has some great prayers from the literature. The 4th step one for resentments is below.

What is the 4th Step Resentment Prayer

“God, please help me to be free of anger and to see that the world and its people have dominated me. Show me that the wrong-doing of others, fancied or real, has the power actually to kill me. Help me to master my resentments by understanding that the people who wrong me were perhaps spiritually sick. Please help me show those I resent the same Tolerance, Pity, and Patience that I would cheerfully grant a sick friend.** Help me to see that this is a sick man. Father, please show me how I can be helpful to him and save me from being angry. Lord, help me to avoid retaliation or argument. I know I can’t be helpful to all people, but at least show me how to take a kindly and tolerant view of each and every one. Thy will be done.”(66:2, 66:3, 66:4, 67:0, 67:1)

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